Thursday, August 25, 2005

Time is precious...

The papers have arrived the mobilisation has suddenly become official and very real. I’m glad its official at work now so I can get the financial ball rolling, one of my major concerns has been how does the whole pay situation work. I know we get our wages paid by the Army to the same level we earn normally but I have share plan deductions, my pension, payments on a laptop I purchased from BT and others. All those payments are direct from my salary so I’ve got to sort all them out so when I return I haven’t lost out on future benefits and savings. Time however is ticking by extremely quickly, I feel as though I can see the time disappearing like sand from an hour glass. The annoying thing is, as with the sand from an hour-glass, you can watch each day go by and each day seems more important as departure gets ever closer and the sand becomes less. Why am I becoming concerned about the lack of time before departure? Isn’t this what I’ve always wanted? It’s never been a concern before in fact even the opposite wishing the time away… Of course as I have always said this is something I desperately want to experience and it is the ultimate life challenge I have dreamed of. But life is a beast and creates paths and obstacles you least expect. With Beth in my life now I have to contend with the inevitable emotions and longing to be with some one, knowing time is now your enemy. This has added the edge I was once to be spared, it was quite straight forward when I had no one to love in my life, “when its time to go leave” but now it’s not quite so easy. I’ve been using all my leave up from work as when I come back it will be a new year and a new allocation of leave. During the time off me and Beth went up to Scotland for 3 nights and stayed in a nice hotel near Fort William. We then spent 4 days at the V festival and the other days just being together. The time me and Beth have together seems more precious every day and that forces the emotions and inner feelings towards one another to morph constantly higher and deeper making every moment count. As the time passes by the essential focus seems to be on creating memories to be shared and looked back on in the coming months…

8 Comments:

Blogger Snakeley said...

Well, who'd have thought that this moment would come around so quickly? Not me, that's for sure. It seemed a life time away when you announced that Iraq was on the cards...now it's right here!!

Fair play to you Hubby - It's hard for me to understand why you would want to go and do what you're about to do in a country which is plagued with war and destruction. It scares me to even consider myself doing such a brave mission...The Big One at Blackpool Pleasure Beach is even too much for me! I've got allot of respect for you mate!

10 months without the Hubster...doesn't bear thinking about! How will we cope...only time will tell.

I'm going to miss you loads pal. Stay strong. Cya soon!

3:41 pm  
Blogger Mike Hubbard said...

You pull the right strings mate... makes me feel emotional when i realise all my freinds and family feel emotional aobut my journey.. At this point its becoming more difficult for me to imagine missing every one while i'm away as i have to get there first, the next 6 weeks will involve some hard training and i pray that nothing will prevent me getting through it all... as then i may be able to explain how i truely feel about you all and the situation, once i'm on the ground in iraq..

But until then my mind and my emotions will be crowded by getting there and dealing with it all once i'm there... only then will i be able to tell all...

in a freeze frame moment i would say the comments and emotions i've shared with you all in the last few weeks have left me in ore.. and feeling very lucky to know you all...

2:11 am  
Anonymous shazza said...

don't know what to say really the first thing that comes to mind is how much we are all going to miss you guys.. and wishing the timw goes quickly and you come back safe

10:42 am  
Blogger Foxy said...

Hubby,

Hope all is going well. Obviously as a full-timer, odds are I'll being going to Iraq more than once so I know exactly how you feel mate. I'm just jealous you're getting there first...

Good luck old son, fill your boots.

Foxy

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Blogger Mike Hubbard said...

Nice one foxy hope all is going well in the regs mate... I'll be keeping in touch ;o)

5:35 pm  
Blogger American Crusader said...

you're doing a great job over there. Americans are also aware of the sacrifices that British troops share with their American counterparts.Get home safely

11:15 pm  
Blogger Mike Hubbard said...

thanks for thats mr crusader and thanks for taking the time to read my blog :O)

4:22 pm  

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